I learned a lot in 2016. I learned a lot about my work, my relationships and the world. And most importantly, I looked inward (a lot.) and learned a lot about myself. If I could sum up 2016 in one word, it would be awareness. Awareness of strengths, my flaws, my insecurities, my potential and my impact on those around me. Although none of these experiences were brought on by significant traumas or terrible crises, the situations I put myself in this year were catalysts for exponential change within my own life.
In a lot of ways, my lack of blogging had a lot to do with a lack of balance. This blog was initially started as a hobby and a means to communicate things important to me. Over the course of the year, I have learned so much about blogging, and have appreciated the outlet it provided me. What I discovered in the last 6 months with my lack of consistent posts is that I had trouble integrating all of the changes into my life to achieve a state of balance.
I am amazed at all that I was able to accomplish this year towards my goals, but I also a huge flaw in my methods. I found that I am so driven towards achievements that I tend to get blindsided by what I am really after. Instead of appreciating moments and the significance they were bringing to my life, I was focused on task completion and moving on to the next thing on my list. I found the culmination of this behavior was becoming burnt out and seeing my passion wane because I was not in balance.
I saw the effects of the lack of balance most on my physical health. I found myself working out 4 times one week, and then not once in the following two. After returning from Iceland, I found myself flung into Thanksgiving and then weeks of Christmas parties and the final weeks the 2016 school year. I spent the entire week before Christmas in bed the sickest I have been in my adult life. This is not the life I want to lead for myself, spending precious time recovering from what I put my body and self through.
So, in 2017, I will still create goals for myself, but with a focus on balance. For example, I want to be able to maintain friendships, focus on hobbies that are important to me, incorporate yoga into my weekly routine, and provide my body with healthy food to increase my energy to maintain a semblance of balance in my life.
I began teaching mindfulness to my students and it has opened my eyes to how important it is to appreciate moments in an open and nonjudgemental way. I have begun to rearrange and prioritize the important things in my life and want to continue to adopt a sense of simplicity to achieve this sense of balance in my day to day life.
And I want my blog to reflect the changes in my life, with a balance of posts that are rejuvenating for you and me. I was astonished to hear the feedback this year from my blog and how it helped many of you during difficult times, or dive into a hobby you have been interested in, or even pick up a book or item from Trader Joe’s I recommended. All of your kind words, encouragement and questions about my lack of blogging did not go unnoticed.
Thank you for sticking by me. I cannot wait to see what 2017 has in store for all of us, and more importantly, what we can bring to 2017.